That average paul

Sitting out here with my lappy, staring at the sky. suddenly emo ar, not the usual me.

Im just thinking about what i want in life. I mean for real. Everythings going perfect at the moment, in fact very good i must say. Life’s stress free now, i go to school, work part-time, go out and all that usual stuff, nothing extreme. but where am i going after i graduate?

I’ve always loved engineering, cos i love it so i ace my modules in poly. but in the actual fact, its not always what u like u get to do. for some reaon or another, I ended up doing a degree in management and marketing. why? i don’t know, cos everyone’s doing it…. its safe…. easy….. Then what happens next? not that i’ve picked a crappy course, its awesome but just not the kind of stuff i do. Its like doing for the sake of a degree.

after all 4 trimester im going to just “get a job” and stick to it. Thats life is it?

Just ranting, i’ll think of what i want. hopefully get a conclusion.

We never call u names. Stop hating the world and yourself.

everything’s fucked up now

 I can’t belief im stepping out into the “real world”. getting a job and working all seem like the norm of any human lifecycle. but now that i really got a job… i get this really weird feeling. one moment im all excited and power-packed to go to work, but next i feel depressed and dejected. well, its not the first time i felt this way, but yea.

is it me or does everybody feel that way? whatever it is, i just have to face it.

Life’s so routine, needs major change man